Psalm 22:
1 My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
2 My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest.
-I can express about verse one, me complaining to God about every mistake that I do, each one that got me far and far away from Dad, even do He is next to me, He hasnt forgotten me, I tried to serach for Him, but there was a barrier, the sins, the distractions that are in my mind, but they are away cause the blood of Jesus, but the day by day keeps consuming me, I claim for help, oh please Lord let me weak up in the morning with you.
3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
you are the one Israel praises.
4 In you our ancestors put their trust;
they trusted and you delivered them.
5 To you they cried out and were saved;
in you they trusted and were not put to shame.
- He is with me still, even though i dont deserve it, He is what He is, Holy One and All Mighty, full of love. I see verse 2, ancestors as my parents in blood and in spirit: dad, mom, pastors and so on. And that i need to trust God more, put all my trust in God, finally i see verse 5 as i need to let all myself go to God.
CONTINUING LIKE A WEEK AFTER OR SO:
6 But I am a worm and not a man,
scorned by everyone, despised by the people.
7 All who see me mock me;
they hurl insults, shaking their heads.
8 “He trusts in the LORD,” they say,
“let the LORD rescue him.
Let him deliver him,
since he delights in him.”
-this is my favorite part "I am a WORM and not a man", this describes me, i am like a worm, disgusting, that walk slowly, and drags on the floor without senses and goals, like just dreaming but not doing nothing to accomplish the goal. Continuing keeps describing me, right now im just one person more, not making difference, not influencing people around me, just living for surviving, not with a purpose, all people around me i think they say: he is just one person more, nothing different. I'm kind of a disappointing man, not even mentioning as says the ppl who mocks me.
I got to the point of thinking that i'm alone, ok its true that there are people who wants good for me, that want that i get better, that want to help. But i'm in a point that nobody can help me completely, yes they are for sure help, and I thk God for their lifes, but the only one that can help me is God. I should get away everything, and trust in God, rest in his arms, and work in the purpose he wants for me, have a joyfull day each day delighting in Him.
